today

... Had lunch with Sidharth ...so funny, the type I'd never get along with I'd like so much :).We then proceeded to have coffee and walked around Forum.He likes expensive things, or so he seemed to imply[from making statements like I need a watch, I think I'll pick up Cartier or casually mentioning in the course of conversation the quality of massages at the Bangalore Club which were mediocre by the way and that the Taj sould be alright. How pompous. Everybpdy knows 5* hotels charge a hundred times more than anywhere else. He pointed out to me that I over analyse things.I'll conceed that I do. A little bit. So, he dropped me home after coffee, cursing traffic all the way and me calling him a cranky puss [ because he is one]. He dropped me at Marlene's house where I forced him to give me a hug because I'll probably never see him again. Today was fun.. :)


..At marlene's house.... Satish made me cry, because he's rude and insulting. I know he doesn't mean to hurt and he feels bad later, so although I do like Satish, somewhat, I think I'm better off staying far, far away . If that's how it is.. then thats how it is.

...Hhome after the wedding, I noticed:
That it upsets my father to see a marriage break.
My mother can be hilarious and has a gutter brain. Go mamma ! * gutter brain smile*
People can be insensitive without even realising it.
Laughter is good for the soul :)

out of my head, on to the blog :) ignore it.. i just had to write it

hmm ... what would be the best way to describe this:
if you could possibly look down your nose at something, you would..
so when you do eventually fall off your pedestal, your ass is going to hurt real bad :)

... *sigh* if only you were a little more honest and a little less fartsy

...*smile* .. i don't pay much attention to group emails... and very rarely respond to them

talking to myself

.... ok, now i turned off dreamcatcher.. because it's dark and the lights are off and laura's sleeping in the other room... and ok so i got scared....
..but i don't believe that i'm going to be scared living on my own.. without a house full of people to run to if i really do get scared... *pout*... maybe i should just stay here and not carry on with my life

things to remember to do:
get over it *sigh*

oh god.. i just don't like the taste of alcohol.. screw the genetic pre-disposition...
.... that satement resulted from a sneaky attempt to down some of j-man's christmas present from kamal [raw mind you]..it's a miniature bottle of white rum.... terrible i tell you! terrible! yuk.. cough.... j-man you can have it all..
i think i'll stick to baileys and liquor chocolate *charming smile* ahem... :)

this would have made sense a long time ago.. but you know how it goes... better late than ? never *big smile*.. [i think it's rather funny now] sadly:( it's lacking in vehemence this time round.... but whatever....


F.O.D.

Something's on my mind
It's been for quite some time
This time I'm on to you
So where's the other face?
The face I heard before
Your head trip's boring me

Let's nuke the bridge we torched
2,000 times before
This time we'll blast it all to hell
I've had this burning in my guts now
for so long
My belly's aching now to say

Stuck down in a rut of dislogic and smut
A side of you well hid
When it's all said and done
it's real and it's been fun
But was it all REAL fun

Let's nuke the bridge we torched
2,000 times before
This time we'll blast it all to hell
I've felt this burning in my guts now
for so long
My belly's aching now to say

to say...

You're just... a fuck,
I can't explain it 'cause
I think you suck.
I'm take-
-in pride
in telling you to fuck off and die.

I've had this burning in my guts now
for so long
My belly's aching now to say
I'm taking pleasure in the doubts
I've passed to you
So listen up as you bite thisssss...

You're just... a fuck,
I can't explain it 'cause I think you suck
.I'm take-
-in pride
in telling you to fuck off and die.

Goood niiiiiiiiight....

love

frying dosas at a quarter to twelve in the night because your daughter's hungry and your wife's asleep.... your daughter will remember..... and the dosas were great :)

some intriguing phrases i heard today :)

- coming right
- stop it
- it's been long since i saw her

.. wish i could have heard some more

i'm very very sad.

just one big stupid ouch

..heartbreak doesn't always have to be about a boy

..today is heartbreak day ......

....yet what you have is right now...
..and right now is exactly as it should be!
-marlene's book :)

things i must make it a point not to do when i have my own place:
-burn the house down
-get robbed
-spoil the milk

q] what do i want ?


a] to crawl under a rug and come out only when winter is over

got a new book today *big smile*[which i can ill afford ...but then everything i buy i can ill afford, so it really doesn't matter ,hehe seem to be spending my christmas gift money on me instead of everyone else :)].. now back to the book. it's called the bookseller of kabul [yes i know kabul is in afghanistan and there is no such pass :D] .. i have no idea who wrote it or what it's about... just the way i like it.[ will find out soon enough anyway] right now it's with m, the reason being he can pretty much have whatever he wants and he wanted to read it so.... lets finish the age of reason before i start something else
k

me

i don't have to compartmentalise and sort things out in my head..

just be ..

k

j-man got me a precious and a nail cutter type chain to carry it.. COOL! =D

i robbed this from sombody's blog =D-kan


as you race by me,
remember its easier,
to stab from the back.
-anushya

'they did not believe death was accidental-life might be, but death was deliberate'
-toni morrison-sula

kancommendation or lack thereof

java city lavell road- quite horrid...the same goes for coffee day there and all the baristas... considering my antipathy towards these places the coffee day mosque road is surprisingly bearable.... my all time favourite however is infinitea- cunningham road nice food too :) and of course brew bakers which had the audacity to shift somewhere and i don't know where :( and coffee house is always peaceful[nevermind the arty pseudo/really intellectual crowd]...another nice food place that i would recommend, popsies - koramangla

winter and i seem to be having a difference of opinion

'an undeniable urge to tell the truth' ..*confused face*.. did i not learn otherwise?
k

ten minutes of uninterrupted reading *smile*

..it's funny how M promptly threatens to break any boys' legs if they seem inclined to show the slighest interest in me[romantically]...and sometimes even if i presume to believe they don't.... :) it's nice to have a protective elder non brother around, considering i don't have a brother to be protective of me..although i do have a couple of elder sisters one of whom can be mean assed if required :D and i suppose they'd do just as well as an elder brother..although i'm sure they wouldn't go around threatening to break legs lol
k

stoopid stoopid stoooooopid
...everyone's allowed their share of stupidness....i used mine up today...gave me a head ache too..blaarr bluh..
k

Railway line bandra station.. arleen,belly and me

3 men in a boat sam,ala,kan -arabian sea, near gateway of india

Staircase shaniwar mahal, pune

you and me 

kan & Sam 

looking back in a 4 seater [point to be noted] auto rickshaw which shuttles up and down this stretch of road.. so you have random people unexpectedly jumping in and out of the back :) one of them reluctantly took our picture before jumping out

face up ala,sam,kan

bat in the cave 

on de bike neil,kan,sam

besoun di mamma
devache besoun ani odle zai
:P

there is comfort in prayer :)
k

i know you're going to read this so, GIVE ME THE BLUE EARRINGS :D... you know they match with my nose ring and the other earring..i'll give you the purple :P...nice purple..very pretty :)
k

kan on clothes

..a mini skirt..with a slit that too!?..what did happen to my sense of propriety? :)..anyway there's a snowball's chance in hell that i'd wear it this winter..like i'm not grumbling enough about the cold, with two sweaters,long pants and socks

north indians.... *puts head down,purses lips,shakes head*

kan on herself -GREEDY

share..no...share...no...share..no...ok

everybody needs a little bit of drama in their life :)

Superficial world

..i miss my dog

..hold on to you and never let you go

.. I remember, I remember you :)

i never gave you anything, you just came and took it..and because i loved you, i let you

you know what they say about survivors...what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger

.. misplaced trust, deal with it

...how could you?

it feels strange to come home to a house with no dog and no people.....

make over

make over?...how unimpressed..
i like me exactly the way i am...the make over *roll eyes up* i think makes me look like those disco chicks i look my nose down at and make fun off..

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worrying thoughts :( .. cannot be thought out aloud... potential crazy lady :)

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traffic jam!
cannot find the place
found the place
cannot find neela
no neela = no room
no room = no toilet
need to pee Really BAD
found toilet =D
found neela
found room
->snake park [closed on wednesdays] GUESS WHAT TODAY IS??
lunch
osho ashram - chandra- premanda <- freaky osho lady *inside kan's head* 'sex drugs sex drugs sex drugs :)
osho chappals! *roll eyes upwards* can start osho chappal shop in bangalore
hitch hike
book shop
BABES.. [how tedious]
got lost going back to guruwarpeth...some ..or rather one of the party hyperventillated and had a minor heart attack :)
nice auto guy took us home safely
..prayed

other observations on the bus ride

...first distraction: mahesh bhatt movie- murder - full drama

other thoughts:
..the journey never ends, it grows tedious

..the man behind me smells..i think

bombay - the journey

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..an 1130 stop for lunch [i presume] at the same place we stopped at when we went to goa.
i roll up my pants and brave an unlatched toilet [which was clean by the way]
....my only wish...toilet paper :)

k

the weather has changed

the weather has changed
and so have i
the weather has changed
and so has my mind