I'll go without but I won't ask.

I feel like I just hit he jackpot!
:)

I am what I am

An existentialist in the truest sense of the word.

We all agreed. We'd rather be knowledgeable and unhappy than ignorant and blissful.

There was a girl I knew. Of marriageable age. Her different religion boyfriend of 3 years left her. To marry the person his family had picked out for him.

That's just not done. Not after 3 years. Except it was.

"What can I do about it?" She said. Perfectly composed. And carried on with her work.

She reminds me a little of myself.

Category: Yourself or someone like you

"I'll walk with you through hell."

Brown is the perfect colour for today. It matches my mood exactly.

There's only one person I know of who hasn't forgotten how to live.

:)

I love hot water baths and how they make me feel better about life.

All I have is an orange.
And a headache.

Happy Fat

I'm the heaviest I've ever been in my life!

Some people are too precious to have missed knowing.

That fraction of a second where you hesitate before you leap.


Category: Faith

Damned if I do. Damned if I don't.

If I had to give advice to anyone, anyone at all, it would be: Don't stop reading.

If I had issues at all, commitment would be at the top of the list.

It's been over 8 years. Everyone looks the same.
No one is.

Category: The apple turns many times

If loss is what it is, then loss is what it shall be.


Category: To more interesting feelings!

An Indian on Indians. An excerpt

Suddenly it’s like the world has changed, I have to quickly adapt to this new environment or be lost, it  amazes me how quickly we as humans do adapt when thrown into the fire. I have people from all over the world in my class, so it’s definitely a new experience for all of us, suddenly we all find ourselves having to adjust to a new culture, language, food, not to mention climate. Well maybe not everybody has to adjust to the climate, but for us Indians, it’s definitely a shift. A Kashmiri girl was telling me about how depressed she was when she first came to Paris, while Kashmir is just as cold and snowy it’s not gloomy and depressing, which to me was surprising considering how conflict ridden that area has been… shows how little I know about my own country.
On the other hand there’s a Telagu girl who has gone down to Nice to study finance who  messaged me, not to complain about the weather, but about the Tamilian roommate who screwed her over and has landed her in a pickle over her accommodation and so she will never trust a Tamilian again… It’s funny how the community we’re from determines the way we respond to situations. Each group of people in India has a particular stereotype and while we would like to dispel them as untrue, they usually aren’t. For example, people from Andhra Pradesh are supposed to be very emotional, they take things personally. So if they love you they’ll do anything for you and if they hate you, you’d better watch out. They’ve also got a great sense of humor and will often use emotion to manipulate a situation. People from Kerala are supposed to be very clannish. They will do anything to help their own people and promote themselves, they’re also very hardworking and ambitious, they’re more likely to take the lowest pay just to undercut the competition and get the job… outside of Kerala, in Kerala they’re perpetually on strike. On the other hand you have Mangaloreans, my own people, who have a reputation for either being party animals and sporting the crab mentality, which is that you will do anything to pull other people down and try to push yourself to the top. Mangaloreans are quite likely to pull their own family down just to get ahead.

[Taken from a Yellow Rabbit]

Question I've been asked

Q. Would you like an LV bag?
A. No, I despise everything it represents not to mention how ugly they are. That being said I'd be perfectly happy with a Cartier ring.  Because I'm a magpie.

Category: Double standards in a nutshell

The lengths that I will go to.

Having never felt the need for external validation / looking down one's nose at people / sitting on a high horse / living off common sense and logic

Today I got my cheap thrills from throwing a peace sign shadow (using my fingers), on the back of the bus in front of me.

:D

Category: Peace yo

If there's one place I'm always left; it's between the floor and the ceiling.

When people underestimate me, I tell them not to bother. Not to bother estimating me at all.

The right balance of arrogance and humility.

Believe in me, because I don't believe in anything

I want something to believe in and someone to look up to.

There is no rest for the wicked.

Young girl. Violins. Center of her own attention.

- Daughter, Pearl Jam

There's a fault in the approach.

State of mind: Pensive

Cheesecake for breakfast.

Category: Who could ask for anything more?
Mood: Happy

Butterflies in my head.

If there's one thing I, with a certainty and absolutely never want to be, it's obsessed about fashion.

Category: Disengage

The girls are going to end up with brain damage if they keep watching Barbie and the Dream House.


Category: Low grade lampoonery

When I see pictures of them. Five girls, not six, I wonder what's more important, being entertained, (because it is important and they are entertaining) or someone who's got your back.

You're not the type that would ever take betrayal lightly.

In your place, I would have done exactly the same and felt the loss just as deeply. 

Seriously

It all comes back to this. About how seriously we take it all and ourselves.

Someone was crying about not being able to get a cigarette the other day and a friend simply said this, almost to himself, "It's not the difference between poverty and wealth."

She, my sister's leaving.

Her younger girl protests. "If  you go, I'm going to sleep on the sofa. No, the floor!" She's all of 5, little Maya.
Her elder more understanding sister wants to know, "How many weeks will you be gone for?" "52." My sister replies. "That's a lot of weeks!" Says Megan. She's 7.


I try not to think about going aways. I claim that I don't miss people. When people go away, it makes me sad and missing people is pointless.

Live. Trust in the resilience of people.  

And don't worry. We won't let her sleep on the floor.

Category: Advice
Type: Free

Unfortunately, you can't be both wildly popular and only let smart people in.
- Ryan Carlyle, Subsea Hydraulics Engineer

All I want to do is read. I'm doing everything but.

People can often end up being nameless faces. With mouths.

I hate shopping. And yet, I will.

Feeling an awful lot like a hamster.

I did none of the things I meant to do.
Instead, I spent the whole day with someone.
Someone like me.

Talking.

Strip me of my pretensions. One is ordinary after all, with the commonest of woes and wanting the most superficial of joys.

- Aditi

You're more likely to be noticed if you're standing on your head.
:)

Dimwits

My dad shot a crow once because someone gave him an air gun.
All the other crows cawed and cawed for the longest time.

Did they heap curses on his head?

Category 1: Crows
Category 2: Curses

Rare.
And therefore valuable.

Category: One person

Today I was kind to a crow. Do crows heap blessings on your head?

Saturday is like a day at the beach at my office. Capri pants and bathroom chappals. I'm serious.

I spent the whole of today trying to close 2 bank accounts that won't be closed.

Note to self: Be cool

Like water. With a PH of 7.


:) <3

More

I want more.
I don't know how much and I don't know for how long.

Peekaboo

Don't you know you might find a better place to play.

- Oasis

This is what I'm doing these days

   

Category: Partner accrobatics

Hell

I thought vanity was my favourite sin but it looks like gluttony comes a close second.

Category: How to get there

Maybe we could talk instead about taking over the world.

An inability

If I hate anything, it's being constrained.

All I have to say to the righteous and the indignant, the fools and the philosophers alike. Wait until you're sick with a fever. See how much all this matters then.

Category: Tongue in cheek

My family has the funniest skeletons and the most outrageous closets.
:)

Every Friday I get mildly depressed.

Worn out faces. Worn out places.

Frying pan. Fire.

Realignment seems to be in order.

Shells of people

I don't like working on Saturday at all but I like my office a lot :)

Three places to party tonight and all I plan to do is climb.

Category: :)

Traffic jam at 9 PM

Category: Where did it all go wrong?

You Wonder

When people say Bannaerghatta instead of Bannerghatta and Hebble instead of Hebbal.


Category: Where did it all go wrong?

Two things my new manager has in abundance. Sense, sense of humour.

Makes you smile and makes me smile along

I asked him if he had a dog. He said. 'No.' and wanted to know why.
I explained that I had smiled at a man with a dog thinking it was him.
'The man smiled back.', I said. 'That's what matters.',  he replied.

It certainly does.


Category: Knowing what's important

Be still. Be beautiful

You're being as straightforward as you can be. While it's offensive, I'm not offended and I appreciate that you are, that you can be.


Mood: Anywhere in between
Category: Respect

There's nothing wrong with being a sheep but there's just something awesome about running with the wolves.

I live in an imaginary world. In this world people are upfront, kind and respect each other.

The joys of spending the day at home

I woke up early (nothing joyful about that) and went for a run with my cracked friend Tilley.
Came, back and voila, breakfast is served.
A leisurely shower and a nap, I wake up to hot, fresh food. Don't you people at work miss that?? :)
And then a session of The Big Bang Theory, followed by work on my new blog, followed by this entrepreneurship course that I'm doing and what do you know, it's tea time already.
In walks my darling mother with tea and rusk. Who could ask for more?
"She's spoiled." rants my father. "I'm not," I say, "Just born under a lucky star."
:)


About me: Lucky

There is no place in the world for people who aren't aggressive, who aren't assertive.
This in no way applies to me but I wonder, where do the gentle and the sensitive people go?


Mood: Sad
Category: Megan

"Life is mostly froth and bubble
Two things stand like stone
Kindness in another's trouble
Courage in your own"

Courtesy: Sonali Menezes' Grandmother

Left Justify

When your back's against the wall, you do whatever it is you have to do.

Megan (Age 7): If bad people shoot us how do we die?
Uncle Prashanth (Age 34): If bad people shoot us, we die slowly and painfully screaming "Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah" for about 5 minutes. If good people shoot us, on the other hand, we die with a look of surprise on our faces, wondering why a good person would even shoot us in the first place.


Category: Humour

When you do something good

These unexpected things. It's almost as if the universe is conspiring.

Mood: Happy

Bullies

I and numerous others have had to put up with one for the last 7 months.
I'm the last person to stand for something like that and finally today I hit back.
Hard.

Category: Fighting dirty

I ordinarily think it's beneath me to stoop down below a certain level and yet today I did.
And I'd do it again.

Against my better judgement, I'm feeling a little bad.

Mood: Slightly (only very slightly) remorseful

Say it isn't so

The worst kind of person.
The apathetic kind.

About: Me

I reiterate that I don't believe in charity.
It's simple. It's the hierarchy of needs in a nutshell.
This simply doesn't fall into the purview of a need.

What  I do believe in is enabling and being enabled to do something.
It's gratification at the end of the day. The gratification of self actualization as Mr. Maslov puts it.
Throwing a strategy together, being clever, playing with and controlling a situation, it's just fun.

Being at the top of a theory certainly is.

  

About fitting into a 6

If,  'Let me fit into a 6.' is my prayer for today; I think that pretty much speaks for itself.
It either means I'm self absorbed (aren't we all?) or I'm slightly on the chubby side (again, aren't we all?). 

I've turned into an absolute bitch.


Category: As if writing it down will somehow redeem me

I can easily see myself being a workaholic.
All it takes is liking what you do. It's as easy as that.

What I didn't anticipate though were the headaches.
Easily a direct result of insufficient sleep and staring too long at the computer.

Forgetting how to have a life comes easily.
Stopping to talk to people and not reading books anymore are things I don't even notice I've missed.

I notice that I stutter sometimes when I speak. It's slightly unnerving. I've never stuttered in my life. Before this. I realise it isn't nerves. It's lack of practice. I've just stopped talking to people. Imagine that.

Wow.

Jewels from the workplace

You cannot leave without doing things half done.


Category: You don't say?

We're loyal like that.
We pointedly dislike anyone who has been unkind to our friends.
So, when I think about it, there exist people that I've never even met, that I dislike on principle.

I hope they rot in hell. That's right. All of them.

"And is this selection natural?", she asked,

I sometimes wonder how I've come to have over a 1000 friends on Facebook when I claim that I only have 5 friends and when these aren't in hearing distance (I mean around :), I calmly insist that I have none.

My conclusion is that I've lived a long time and done many things in this time and at each stop met a 100 or 200 people. And wonderful people they have been.

But as I always say, it's a process of Natural Selection and no one needs me to explain that.

All I want to do is climb.

But good people don't do bad things.

I never set out to achieve anything. And yet I did.
A sense of self.
My biggest achievement.

Can't hardly wait

I love what I'm doing.
I hate where I'm doing it and I can't wait to leave.

No one did

I was thinking about this group of people I know.
Something's wrong with them. I'm convinced of it.

Something has to be wrong when all the male specimens [and specimens are what they are], all friends, make a move on a girl irrespective of whether they are married, single, engaged, seeing someone, old, young, on drugs, possibly gay, it doesn't matter. They will try their luck. All of them. And compete with each other to boot.

It makes me wonder, is that all it boils down to?


Category: Getting lucky

I love it when things like this happen

I heard something nice today.
A story. True.
It involved a baby, an ocean crossing, a chance meeting, the start of a friendship, a meddling mother and still. 
Things fell perfectly into place.  Maybe because of the meddling mother.


I mean, what are the odds.


Category: Just like a paperback novel

Slowly, Surely, Surly. Turning.

My God, this is so gay

http://www.youtube.com/user/TaylorSwiftVEVO

I like to insist that individuals have an in built ability to make decisions.
If this is really true, why then do I need to be listened to? Why the need for the advisory board to contribute with their own logic, which in the end aligns with my own?

When it comes to making a decision, I'm always completely sure. So, an emotional reinforcement is what this must be.

Category: Must be

:)

What I say and what I think, matters. My opinion about these, the acknowledged few, matters. As it should.
And yet, it seems, I'm careless. Careless with my opinion. Careless with people.
I never imagined that this of all things is what I would end up being.


About me: Careful 

Today my family sat around and we talked about our experiences with Indian cops.
Hilarious.

:)

I'd like my life back.

Megan (Age 6): I'm allergic to rubbish.


Category: Aren't we all?

And another one. And another one.

I have the best mother.

Category: <3 br="">

She talks only to people she truly likes.

I was informed today that people who try to push people down to put themselves up are just smart.
It left a bad taste in my mouth.


Category: There's something wrong with the world

If I had eight hours to chop down a tree, I'd spend six hours sharpening my axe.
-Abraham Lincoln

Inside the Box

It's so amazing here.

Information I do believe, is money.

The pleasure in keeping my mind alive.
The pleasure in learning.

We all have our crosses to bear.
Mine has big bulging eyes.

A sudden spurt of nasty. Again.


Category: Sigh

This is so nice

Courtesy: Lauraspora

I've never wanted or needed to notice anything about anyone before and I suddenly find that I do.
It's disappointing to say the least. To watch people centre their lives around the opinion of one person.
Seriously? What's wrong with everybody.
And yet, the exceptions. And thankfully there are exceptions. They just exceed all expectations.

To the exceptions. To the exceptional.

And if you have to care about anyone's opinion at all, maybe you should care about your own, of yourself.

Category 1: Never fitting in
Category 2: Not even going to try

stalk

Just saying

If you're going to do anything. Anything at all. Make sure you're kicking ass while you're doing it.

Seeing it as you see it. Oh Wow

Category: Google Glass
Courtesy: Sunil Pai as retweeted from Michael Mahemoff

Learning their manners and being helpful

Tama (age 5): When someone says a thank you, someone has to say you're welcome.

To Maya (age 5): What's the magic word?
Maya: Abracadabra!

Megan (age 6) while watching Dora Explorer on TV: We helped them so much Maya and they didn't give us any ice cream.

In repair

An unintentional reference to something that could vaguely pass for a penis is all  it takes to get some people rolling on the floor.

We've got quite a few of those types in the office.


Category: Somebody shoot me please

I'm thinking of things lost. Of things I wish I'd never.

A note. That note on a paper on a recorded cassette which had Tracy Chapman songs on it. Both the note and the tape.
The first carabiner and the second.
Sin City - Frank Miller and Love Story - Eric Segal

An objectiveness that offends.

Jump

People jump to conclusions. All the time.
And I wonder. Should I explain?

I usually don't.

How interesting it all and everything is.

Is this real. Is this pretend.

There's a division in my mind.


Category: Alice

Sticky

tape.words.people

The Glue

Some people are the glue that holds groups together.
It's a talent to be the glue. It certainly is.

A Valentine Video - Post Secret

Somewhere in Italy

There are two kinds of people I've noticed recently. The ones that inspire people. The ones that manipulate.

The world is a circus.

I don't.
I don't lie. I don't make things up.
I won't.

Everywhere I turn. Oddballs.

At least somebody is

My Cousin. He's happy. His friends are over at his place and they're singing. At the top of their lungs.

Au secour

People help. People are helping.

Today and everyday I have to contend with the most mean spirited, negative, horrible human being I have ever encountered.

That's all.


Category: Spawn of Satan

Still

So straightforward. So naive.

I am neither

We've been informed that we need to be shameless and aggressive to do this job.

Don't air your mental framework in public.

Minorities have the liberty

I make observations. I remain apathetic.

What goes by largely unnoticed is that on an average, people are incapable of existing beyond feeding off the ideas of other people. Taking them on, parading them as their own.

Substandard is the accepted standard.

Uncouth

1) Did I plateau?
2) Do I mind?

What Circuit City Learned About Valuing Employees

http://blogs.hbr.org/cs/2012/10/what_circuit_city_learned_abou.html

Rules and policies and regulations and stipulations are innovation killers. People do their best work when they’re unencumbered. If you’re spending a lot of time accounting for the time you’re spending, that’s time you’re not innovating.

It's awesome to be studying again!

Mood: Happy

So, my diamond earrings have been found.
All I need now is my phone and love interest to come back.

Position of fingers: Crossed

The straw that broke the camel's back.

I must say

I have the nicest friends, family and colleagues.


Category 1: The luckiest
Category 2: <3>

Intolerance is wrong, wherever it comes from.
-Yamanoor Srihari

I want to tell people who are starting out, something that was said a long time ago. Keep doing it, whatever it is you're doing and you'll get good at it. Trust me. No one was born a superstar.

Category: Aristotle / Malcolm Gladwell / Me

I want to have stress free blueberry chai with my sisters.
I want to read late into the night.
I want to have an early morning walk on Kudle beach with anyone.
I want relaxed weekend breakfasts.
I want to run and climb and swim and travel.
I want to have a life outside of work again. 
 

Karna

My favourite fictional hero.

I would and I do use the names of people as my passwords.
Most usually, the names of guys that I like.
When the liking stops, they serve as reminders, that I did and that I'm capable of it and not to forget it.

I found my secret talismans. All I need to find now are my phone (or alternately get a new one- S3), my love interest and I don't really care about the diamond earrings.
Looking forward to a completely neutral 31 with neither anticipation nor apprehension :)

From one of my favourite authors

With myself

Negotiating and renegotiating.

Can't touch this.