37

I turn 37 today.
When I was 23, sitting in a club I didn't  like, drinking a  drink that tasted awful, listening to music that I hated, and watching  people who were scantily dressed and drunk, I promised myself that I would never do anything that I didn't want to do. I wouldn't cave in to peer or social pressure.
In all these years, nothing's changed.

Today, I asked myself what I wanted to do? What would make me happy? The answer was, clean the house :-)
At 37, nothing would give me more joy than a clean house. After that, I'm going to try to make marshmallow fondant.
What a way to celebrate the day 😁

We still say 'house'. Like any of us live in houses anymore.

Perhaps I'm a strange mother.
It doesn't matter to me if my child is good looking or not. Not that I mind if he is. The world will be a little kinder to him.
I hope, more, that he will have a strong but just and kind personality. That he will be self assured and intelligent. Do the right thing and be successful and hopefully happy doing and being whatever he ends up doing and being.

Now that I have a baby

All I can say is...
Thank god for unlimited storage for pictures and video with Google Pixel!

😁

My husband

My husband has changed a lot in the past year.
He's progressed from losing his shit about planning the indgredients for a meal to initiating conversations and having an opinion about furniture 😁

Neither of us has any experience with managing a house or a kitchen or a dog or a child. So, the way I see it, we're equally responsible for our flat, food and dependents.

Category: Progress

So, what do you do when your dog hogs half the bed?

Get a bigger bed, I guess :-\

My mother

My mother is so good. I'm feeling unwell today. I sneeze at 2:00 a.m. I hear my mother calling out to me to find out if I'm ok and if I need anything. I'm 36 years old. She used to do the same thing when I was a little child. If I happened to cough in my sleep she'd be there with a bottle of cough syrup.

I realise more than ever that only a mother cares about you enough to actually do anything for you. Not a father (not as much), not a husband, not your siblings.

You just have to

As I lie here, refusing to move to make dinner for myself, my dog and the starving streetie, I think about having asked that over-achieving woman how she managed or all.
"You just have to do it," she said.

Let's see how that pans out.

This

This is what life should be about.

Karma

"You look beautiful!" I said.
The unnatural black of her hair made her features look pale and delicate.

Category: 'Tis the season

I want a traditional Tamil swing in my living room, hanging over my Athangudi tiled floor.
Is that really such a crazy idea?

😊

Happiness

Contentedness

Obliviousness is bliss

They sit on self-appointed thrones judging others on the way they look and speak. Secure in their self absorption.
Oblivious to the fact that they themselves are objects of utter scorn.

A twink and an arrogant, obsequious lackey.

But she did

She needed to constantly remind herself that: She didn't have to try to fit in.
She didn't have to fake laugh when they made fun of people.
She didn't have to say things were fair when they weren't in the least.
She didn't have to sell something she didn't really believe in.

Love

I'm learning, slowly, to love again.
My dog is teaching me how.

Category: Unconditionally

Horrible

Am I? Aren't you?

Dream

This time, I was a young pup being set upon by other young pups the same age and size as me. They outnumbered me.
And then, I was holding a kitten. A kitten with a third eye that opened wide, like it had the cosmos in it. The kitten itself, had a cute, goofy look on its face.

For some unfathomable reason, I feel it's important to remember this dream.

Be Kinder

I recently told a couple of people that they had a special skill; it was that they had the ability to make other people feel good about themselves.
I thought about it and I think everybody has the potential to do this.

Category: Being kinder