for no apparent reason

[ this is for you. read it.i hope you never understand it's meaning or even realise that it's you i'm talking about. the ambiguity is there ..in place :)]

would you disregard all the things they say about you,
there's a pent up anger , that needs release..and you the unwitting target.
you never did anything. just lived your life the way you wanted to.
the anger was irrational and as far as i'm concerned. unwarrented.
could you see it the same way and disregard it. like the rest. or let it hurt you like it could.
for you i'd choose the former.
and as for the good things. you will not know what they are...but know this...they are there. and that is your comfort.
k

book list

-eragon
-the inscrutable american
-illiad&odessey
-geisha[own copy]
-count of monte cristo
..thats all

i didn't go ow!

i asked god for something a little while ago..i said 'don't let me love ,and don't let me hate' i think strong emotions like the aforesaid could get rather painful,and if they're not headed in the right direction, trust me it could get ugly :D..so anyway, it appears god decided to answer only half my prayer..i stopped loving. *roll eyes upwards*..and today he answered the rest of my prayer.i stopped hating too :)*sigh of relief*

today paul came home with an invitation of sorts [wedding]..[his]. he insisted i make myself available to attend the engagement.i said 'i'll try'.gave that cryptic smile that i save specially for him, and carried on with my life.

expect the ball at all times :D

a basketball phrase for less than tolerable players.your's truly for example :D..still i try...so taking a quick deviation from basketball. guess who i got bumped over for in terms of preference for being served breakfast today??the DOG!!...yeah...mom's making chapatis...i go yay! food! i'm hungry..she laughs and says those are for the dog. and in the mean time i'm going over the hierachy in my head. dad, mom, dog? kan?igotbumpedoverforthedog. i got bumped over for the dog ! indiGnation lol. fortunately dada, and mom's motherly instincts kick in..a tad late if you ask me...i get fed *wide grin* the dog gets fed *wide doggy grin* and we're all set for the pooping expedition.almost always unsuccessful as they are..k...better go. mom's yelling. i've got to walk the mutt.later
k

am only writing because. i'm unoccupied. there's nothing to do ( apart from taking stuoid calls) and i feel like glaring at everyone.even the usual entertainment [kamal] is somewhere else. *glare*...i'm done with blogging. i've egot writer's blog. stupid pun! ha ha very funny.k..that's all.
k

was looking over a few blogs and i noticed that people seem to be generally fond of two words. 'random and ramble' made me think ooh.nice words.maybe i should use them somewhere too.you know don't want to feel left out and all that :) ..riiight.....so with a negligible amount of introspection i decide that there's nothing random about what i write..and i DON'T ramble.although i'm sure a few choice others would have a few choice things to say about that to the contrary :) kaplooie!
cheers,
kan

my prayer

And dear god,
help me to remember.....
When I'm having a really bad day,
And it seems that people are trying to piss me off,
That it takes 42 muscles to frown and
Only 4 to extend my middle finger and tell them to F*** off !

sidharth

my funny person, like i said, every blog needs one :D

petter and noelle. peurto rico [if i'm not mistaken]

shanil and kan
i used to have trouble remembering his name and now i have trouble remembering who he is. but when i do remember i smile :D

Hi, my name is Kiran, I'm a shopaholic

I think I'm an impulsive shopper. Kind of like. ' I see, I like, I buy'; in between chidings to 'focus' and 'don't look there', ' the exit is that => way'. Bumped into Benson at work.Tagged along to Casas.It's been ages since I spoke to him, apart from the occasional, hey how you doing and his rude spasmodic 'blow me' reply. I just realised how much I miss his wild imagination. Life can't get much more entertaining than that :D
Am listening to Matchbox20-Push. Like that song. And I'm getting evil thoughts *evil smile* hehe [evil laugh] I might have some fun if my ploy is successful. Look out for more...till then,
Good luck and God bless.
k

Joanne and Laura took ALL! the pretty clips, and they gave me that ugly looking cap to cheer me up. Of course I started bawling my eyes out,so dadda started taking photographs to cheer me up.It worked apparently.If you'll notice me smiling in earlier picture [babyfaces]

You're my shooting star

Something from before [13/06/04]

Today...felt like my emotions went on a roller coaster ride. Tried so hard to rationalise things. Wasn't easy, but I managed. Put a whole lot of things in perspective.
I don't think I'm there. yet. :) Maybe I am.. Ihope so.
Met college friends today. Coffee day, Lavelle Road. Seems like they've turned a perfectly nice place into an opportunity for kids to show off with their loose pants and modified cars. If it was up to me, I would have relocated to someplace less offensive...but that being the prefered place to be I said nothing. And again, as always, while we were sitting in that over crowded excuse for a coffee shop, waited on by a nice overworked waiter, it seemed to me more than apparent, that I had nothing in common with the people I was with. Out of everyone there though, I think Kirtana has the best sense of humour :D.. Paul as usual was being a pompous ass, and I was just adding fuel to the fire by being bitchy and condescending. He always managed to bring out the worst in me. He then proceeded to be rude and hurtful...seems like a pattern. I'm trying really hard to believe that he really isn't a horrible person ( contrary to general concensus). I think that some part of him is good and some part of him, just isn't. The way I see it. I'm responsible for myself.
But what about things that I couldn't control?
What about that?

That's all.

wakaw!

this morning i was sitting on the sofa.i bent down and said.. ' come here puppy'...puppy heard ' come here puppy and bite my face' and she bounded over and bit my lip. *ouch*.[stupid mutt]..anyway , went to the doc and dramatically asked 'doctor! will i live?!'. ok seriously.. went to the doc..asked ' how many shots?'...'three', said he :D hehe. i said cool. took the shot + a tetanus shot. came home, had everyone make fun of me and the situation ( tragic as it was) came to work....and as usual nothing to do..really. there is however a distraction :). should survive the day...am considering getting sick tomorrow

why simplify, when it's so much easier to just complicate things

i wonder someimes what exactly i'm doing?! i behave a certain way.and if i'm not mistaken i think there's..like this sub concious being inside of me who's trying really hard get me ocstracized from polite society.[ok not polite society in the traditional sense of the word, i don't really care about that.but polite society in my sense of the word yikes! as if i don't have enough trouble tyring to pass off as socially acceptable.as it is.i've made myself a performing monkey [uh , i really wouldn't go that far:)], of myself without even realising it. it's like what emmanuel was saying today.writing for yourself [the real writing] and writing for an audience..knowing that somebody is going to read your work,wondering if they'll like it..i guess that would apply to life too.i could behave a certain way ,just because i think someone is watching...aah..but no, i think i'd fit in better with the reverse psychology in the situation.i think i should realise that someone IS watching and therefore i should NOT behave a certain way ...aarrgh.stupid sentences...looks like my new favourite doctrine is 'why simplify, when it's so much easier to just complicate things'

sour-sweet

I remember telling myself once, that there are some things that i would not remember, and some things that I would not forget. I would not remember,the things that I did not want to remember and  I would not forget, the things I would make it a point to remember; simply because those things were easy to forget and once I forgot, well it would just give the words self preservation a whole new meaning. I think god blessed me with a rather bad memory.Screw self preservation.
 and then there were things that I'd suddenly remember and smile..and as I smiled I'd remember something else that made me sad and I'd stop smiling.. never quite making it to a frown, but I'd be stuck exactly midway between sour and sweet :-) ...sour-sweet....just one of those things...

Lavanya, under the influence :D [She's so drunk]